Can't sleep

I've been sleeping like crap lately. My brain is too
full. And I don't want to go to work tomorrow. I hate
it. I hate my team. It's going nowhere, our project is
dead in the water (even if others refuse to see it),
and our so-called leader...isn't.

And my co-worker and fellow admin got a promotion to
another department while I got turned down. I feel
trapped. Every time I've thought about it this
weekend, I've wanted to burst into tears and
hyperventilate. I haven't felt this bad about work
since I used to work at WaMu back in 02-03.

I have utterly no desire to do the admin gig anymore -
not even until next August when I'll student teach.
Who in their right mind wants to stay and admin
assistant? It's a dead end mindless job. I am far too
smart for it; and that's not meant as a boast. Just
statement of fact: I'm bored out of my fucking mind
and hate picking up other people's stupid shit.
Baby-sitting for adults.

And school is just depressing the hell out of me right
now as well. Two dumb classes this semester. I pray
next semester is better, but I have to figure some way
of passing this one first. Once I found out I was
going to be ridiculously bored this semester, my brain
tuned out and I haven't learned a damn thing.

I've been watching an episode and Prime Suspect and
then Wooster & Jeeves. Send me to England, please.

I am going to finish this teacher program and then
some how, some way I am clawing my way into a teaching
position overseas.